I thought I had it figured out. The most high has shown me I will forever be a student in life, in family, and in love. For more than a year I have struggled with basic roles, and interactions that used to be so easy to me. This last year has really FORCED me to show I believe.
Ive encountered so much I could not control, and so much I didnt think I could handle. So much turmoil, conflict, and everything else you can think of. All that I can say is, that it is BEYOND hard to do the right thing, but you know that you have done the right thing when you start thanking the most high for everything you have, instead of begging him to take everything off of you.
When the most high teach you something its often a lesson you will never forget, or want to learn again. #praisehim for the ability to learn, love, and live again.
I am not sure of anything. These last few months have undone everything I thought I knew. So now what? Everyday is like wtf is going on. Like where have I been and what have been doing.
I cant tell if its a good thing or bad thing. Maybe one of these days I will be able to figure out up from down. Until then Ill just keep going.
So here I am all emotional and in my feelings. First thing I do is go to tumblr , so I can whine in peace. LOL
I was getting out of the car and my friend said you are look so skinny. That made my day. I was like whoop whoop!!
Im so happy to have survived til today. I swear this year was the year that almost killed me. I was walking across the parking lot and a car literally hit my shopping bags and barely missed my knees. I was broke.com for 9 months of the year. My family decided to harrass and torture me for months. I lost my best friend. And im a lame at love.
Butttttttttt !!!!! I am still alive so #praisehim
After all that I cut my hair, lost some weight, and got some new clothes. Did things Id never thought I would do and after a while I forgot all the nonsense I had to endure this year. #praisehim again